Sending love. This reminds me of a conversation I had with a friend recently. We were talking about the idea of being okay, even when you're not okay. And she was like, no, it needs to be even less than that, that's too neat. And we decided it just needed to be..."I am" ! Sometimes you just need to be a human having a human experience because this is our lot in life. And it is messy, even if people don't always show the mess. You will have helped people by showing the 'muck' in this post. x
“Even though I disliked working in an office, I miss people. Even though I’ve chosen an independent life, I am lonely.” So much this. And don’t beat yourself up bc you’re supposed to be “better”. “Better” is a myth, we can only feel how we feel in any given day. X
Thank you for sharing this ❤️ A powerful and relatable read. I wish there was more honesty in the world about these things. So many of us go through this stuff and feel ashamed / alone, but, as you say, it's part of being human. Wishing you better tomorrows and well done on getting through the hours in whatever way works. xx
This is such a generous and courageous piece of writing, thank you so much for posting it. Just being with ourselves, and not fidgeting and resisting and trying to criticise ourselves better to get to the other side might be the hardest part of being human. I think it requires an enormous amount of grace, and I’m so inspired by your grace here. (YES, of course grace includes stained joggers and cat pee!)
Hey girl, I think you’ve got this. I was reading your essay yesterday with a cold sore the size of a 2 pound coin across my chin, recently out of a 4 year relationship and on the other side of 3 months feeling like tripe. I read a quote that said The Only Way Out Is Through and though it may only be a quote it resonated with me, so sharing it with you. Don’t stop writing and trying! We are all in this together. There’s so much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
There's something transformative in writing honestly - telling the truthiest truth, as Glennon Doyle and probably many others have put it. Thank you for shaping and sharing, and sending a hug!
Of course you must write about feeling bad as well as good. Depression is like anorexia: you can try and control it but you're never rid of it and if it sneaks up and whacks you on the head, you need to protest. Sharing makes your readers feel better, even if you don't feel better yourself, though their sympathy can work like arnica on a bruise: it fades away even though you can still feel it.
“....and now I’m better.” It’s frustrating to me that this is what publishers of memoir want to see, the so-called ‘uplifting’ book. Knowing that we’re not alone in our struggles is more healing and calming than “and now I’m better.” Thank you for this. You’ve got an invisible cohort in your struggle.
In your vulnerability, I see so much of myself. And to feel seen in times like these, especially when it can feel like we’re the only ones wondering when we’ll feel better and questioning if the decisions we’ve made were right... feels like such a gift. Thank you for every word. 🙏✨
Do you know how refreshing it is to read about the unwashed truth? I wholeheartedly agree that it " deserves to be heard as much as the scrubbed-clean version." I relate so much to your story and your circumstances - as I had to leave my beloved career 5 years ago. Thank you for everything you post.
This is refreshingly real, in all of its messy and contradictory glory. And for that reason I find it more beneficial of a read than the dozens of other self-improvement reads that pop up in my email on a weekly basis. The truth is that most of us are right there with you, but are afraid to put that part of themselves out there. I applaud your transparency... as a fellow runner and totally confused human who also has a history with panic attacks, I have so much to relate to here.
Thank you so much for generously sharing your experience and sending lots of love! "having a panic attack in the park while the sun shines" resonates so much.
Sending love. This reminds me of a conversation I had with a friend recently. We were talking about the idea of being okay, even when you're not okay. And she was like, no, it needs to be even less than that, that's too neat. And we decided it just needed to be..."I am" ! Sometimes you just need to be a human having a human experience because this is our lot in life. And it is messy, even if people don't always show the mess. You will have helped people by showing the 'muck' in this post. x
“Even though I disliked working in an office, I miss people. Even though I’ve chosen an independent life, I am lonely.” So much this. And don’t beat yourself up bc you’re supposed to be “better”. “Better” is a myth, we can only feel how we feel in any given day. X
Thank you for sharing this ❤️ A powerful and relatable read. I wish there was more honesty in the world about these things. So many of us go through this stuff and feel ashamed / alone, but, as you say, it's part of being human. Wishing you better tomorrows and well done on getting through the hours in whatever way works. xx
This is such a generous and courageous piece of writing, thank you so much for posting it. Just being with ourselves, and not fidgeting and resisting and trying to criticise ourselves better to get to the other side might be the hardest part of being human. I think it requires an enormous amount of grace, and I’m so inspired by your grace here. (YES, of course grace includes stained joggers and cat pee!)
Hey girl, I think you’ve got this. I was reading your essay yesterday with a cold sore the size of a 2 pound coin across my chin, recently out of a 4 year relationship and on the other side of 3 months feeling like tripe. I read a quote that said The Only Way Out Is Through and though it may only be a quote it resonated with me, so sharing it with you. Don’t stop writing and trying! We are all in this together. There’s so much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
that is a brilliant quote x
There's something transformative in writing honestly - telling the truthiest truth, as Glennon Doyle and probably many others have put it. Thank you for shaping and sharing, and sending a hug!
Of course you must write about feeling bad as well as good. Depression is like anorexia: you can try and control it but you're never rid of it and if it sneaks up and whacks you on the head, you need to protest. Sharing makes your readers feel better, even if you don't feel better yourself, though their sympathy can work like arnica on a bruise: it fades away even though you can still feel it.
Sending so much love Katy. I am grateful to know you and read your words. ❤️🙏🏼
“....and now I’m better.” It’s frustrating to me that this is what publishers of memoir want to see, the so-called ‘uplifting’ book. Knowing that we’re not alone in our struggles is more healing and calming than “and now I’m better.” Thank you for this. You’ve got an invisible cohort in your struggle.
I love this so much. It normalizes normal, the real normal, not the cleaned up version. Thank you Katy 🩵
Such a beautiful, honest post. Thank you for sharing, I know it will help so many. I’m glad you had the courage to share this 💛
In your vulnerability, I see so much of myself. And to feel seen in times like these, especially when it can feel like we’re the only ones wondering when we’ll feel better and questioning if the decisions we’ve made were right... feels like such a gift. Thank you for every word. 🙏✨
Do you know how refreshing it is to read about the unwashed truth? I wholeheartedly agree that it " deserves to be heard as much as the scrubbed-clean version." I relate so much to your story and your circumstances - as I had to leave my beloved career 5 years ago. Thank you for everything you post.
This is refreshingly real, in all of its messy and contradictory glory. And for that reason I find it more beneficial of a read than the dozens of other self-improvement reads that pop up in my email on a weekly basis. The truth is that most of us are right there with you, but are afraid to put that part of themselves out there. I applaud your transparency... as a fellow runner and totally confused human who also has a history with panic attacks, I have so much to relate to here.
So very good 👍
Thank you so much for generously sharing your experience and sending lots of love! "having a panic attack in the park while the sun shines" resonates so much.